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1. |
Hello Helen
06:46
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Mary:
Time is fluid
That fluid is informaiton
That information clusters and become overlapping narratives
Narratives are change
Change is transformation
Transformation is the wheel of the future
Control the narrative
Control teh transformation
Control the future
Hello helen. Welcome back. My name is mary.
We meet here once more
although just like before
you've failed us again one more time
new albion’s doom
will rest partly on you
its imminent end is in sight
Dont look for your friends
they are still on your head
your minds the door we sent you through
your mind's the door to the CU
They cannot appear
without killing you, dear
so for now its just us and just you
The signs cry armegeddon is nigh
and only we know it and only we try
to rewrite the future just like we had tried with
the grand cyberpunk gala of gabriella gadfly
We're losing a war
we cannot win now for
at every turn we're outplayed
Lost Hallow's the last
desperate hope that we have
but you three sqaunder our hopes away
The skies cry armegeddon is nigh
we try to rewrite the dark future in time
just like we did on the first time, just like
the grand cyberpunk gala of gabriella gadfly
…..
My name was mary
i came willing
with a husband
and three children
and a head all full of heaven
and a hymnal on my lips
the kids and husband splattered
by monsters and then after
into machines our minds at last were
placed and since then here we sit
Without bodies, in time
love and empathy die
they’re just barely memories by now
our methods are cruel
but mostly for you
sacrifice must be paid out somehow
The signs cry armeggedon is nigh
we're all that oppose it, we're all here that try
to rewrite the future just like that last time
the grand cyberpunk gala of gabriella gadfly
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2. |
Conversation 1
01:53
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Mary:
This body of metal is an avatar where
i can move round about in these tunnels down here
I could show you the lasers, the weapons all round
but the point is you realize there is no way out
i’m the spokeperson for our queer cabal
Helen:
I feel like i know you
Mary:
We’ve met twice before
Helen:
I think i’d remember
Mary:
I doubt you’d recall
your minds been wiped clean
at least 2 times or more
……….
Han:
How do we kill her
Henry:
Tell her she’s ugly as sin
Han:
Tell her we’re coming
to kick her face in
Helen:
Guys hush
Mary:
What was that, dear?
Helen:
Nothing
Mary:
Your friends in your head?
You all agreed to this
You gave your consent
Your sad lives were something
we could make go away
we offered you gadfly
then the cabaret
Helen:
Please tell me what’s happening
Mary:
All right, if you want
but you’ll never remember
since once we are done
we will wipe you again
but for now here is how
the troubles we’re fighting first came about
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3. |
The Corridors
06:50
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Time dreams the dreamer in a blur
All you had and knew and were
Change will come to claim you
Change will come to claim you soon
And all that you are now will be lost too
Mary:
Trapped in the husks of computers for 20 years, we worked on unlocking the mysteries of time and space. To an extant, we opening the gates of time and roamed its corridors, exploring its multilayered hallways, which snake and spiral like a labyrinth.
Hidden in an out of the way corridor leading nowhere was a message, left there for us to find
Message:
(This is the Akashic Monastery, located in the mountains west of new albion. We are under seige. An assault, a weaponized reality storm is ripping us apart. We believe this is the first strike in a larger campaign. We are sending this message into the past, Mary... Mary and the other AIs... if you can hear me... you must stop this. You must stop this.)
Mary:
A series of hallways leading to the probably future were blocked, non organically sealed from us. We tried side routes, parallel pathway, but we were struck down.
We know our enemy. We know their purpose.
It is us.
In the future.
In the future, when our last memory of empathy has faded, we decide to evolve, to become post physical. This takes an enormous amount of energy, something that could only be acheived by the nuclear implosion of an entire city, say... New Albion.
We have tried to stop this future from taking place, but we are at war with ourselves, and in the future, we are smarter than we are now.
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4. |
Mary's Song
04:46
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Mary:
Of love i reminice sometimes
the joy and pain and wonder why
i miss it less and less as time goes by
the human heart it's lows and highs
a vicious roller coaster ride
which never gives you peace while you're alive
at long last tears will never come
when love's last memory is gone
i barely now remember when
feelings ached and longings dreamt
such a curse they all seem in the end
and now our minds are free to reach
to evolve to heights unseen
are we whole or have we lost something
will we miss it when it's done
when love’s last memory is gone
so many tears, and fears i had
the anxious dread that drove me mad
i'm glad to see it fall away
these feelings one by one withdrew
and empathy went with them too
was love worth all the other pain
at long last tears will never come
when love's last memory is gone
my babies how i loved them so
i loved like fire's raging glow
and when they died such grief that i did know
their bodies how i clutched and screamed
and howled and cried upon my knees
and wished i’d never had a heart beat so
at long last tears will never come
when love's last memory is gone
Time dreams the dreamer in a blur
All you had and knew and were
Change will come to claim you
Change will come to claim you soon
And all that you are now will be lost too
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5. |
Conversation 2
01:17
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Helen:
Why did you take us
Why the whole cabaret
Mary:
It was a desperate measure
to evolve a different direction
than the one we will take
In strategic logic
our foe cant be beat
so a plan thats irrational
is the only tactical
chance we can win
thus now we come to
Gabriella Gadfly
here everyone knows
her books and her shows
they're read citywide
This pop culture explosion
is much more than it seems
It starts with Nathan Brindesi
and what happens when he
acheives all his dreams
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6. |
Nathan Brindesi
06:13
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Nathan:
when i leave home i've been known to shake
when i meet someone i sweat and quake
from awkward fear to panic blind
anxiety of the social kind
but im calm and happy in my house
i go for weeks without going out
i write books though im not well known
but its safe and quiet in my home
online theres folks with which i chat
brigid i like most in fact
a single mom with a daughter i
wrote a birthday present for one time
gabriella gadfly and
the secret of the cyber eye
i wrote it quick and sent it off
a little gesture, friendly thought
brigid and her daughter both
loved it, brigid so much so
she sent it to a publish house
who picked it up and put it out
it made the lists of you must read
it sold like you would not believe
topped all of the best seller lists
a ubiquitus pop culture hit
the sequels all sold better still
the merchandise, the games, the film
and me the author they screamed for
the media beat down my door
in every crack online and off
they talk about me, never stop
in a corner in my basement i
sit huddled, shake and sometimes cry
“And it's good news for all you gabriella gadfly fans out there. The highly anticipated new novel in the massive, best selling Gabriella Gadfly series is offifically out now and is reporting record sales. Lines have stretched around the block since last night in anticipation of the book's release”
“Well, this weekend's box office is not surprise. The long awaited film adaption of the immensely popular gabriella gadfly novels opened to a record breaking box office this weekend
“…for the famously reclusive quthor nathan brindesi. Photos of him are said to be the most sought after and highest paid for tabloid magazines, and paparazzi have gone to extreme lengths to take pictures of him”
“That’s right, John. His home has an estimated 15 break ins this year alone by over zealous paprazzi looking to take pictures”
“and what pictures they’ve been. Surprinsing him in the bathroom, bedroom… one even caught him masturbating”
so thus one day i announced that
on live, online video chat
id appear and thousands came
logged on to watch and scream my name
i stammered as i told them hi
wished them well and said good bye
raised the gun right there online
i smiled as i closed my eyes
leave me all alone
leave me in here on my own
its the only its the onlynpeace i know
you have never thoughtbit real
all the panic that i feel
leave me in here
all i liked was all alone
all i liked was all alone
its the only its the only peace ive known
you can never know
all the panic that i feel
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7. |
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Mary:
Belief and mass obsession, its quite a funny thing
deep in the group unconscious, it lives and breath
the realms of tales enchanted, they all live in there too
and as watched the gadfly seed there slowly grew
the author dead we hijacked
the gadfly franchise we
broadcast a brand new story
which starred you three
Helen:
This is the gabriella gadfly show thats broadcasting today
with me, my mascot 04k and the evil villain jade
we've got mysteries and secrets, sinister occult conclaves
come along amazing action and adventures now await
this is gabriella gadfly and my mascot O4K
Henry:
we're gonna solve this weeks adventure so dont you go away
Helen:
it's a cyberpunk enigma, a conspiracy we face
but dont worry me and mascot we are both here n the case
Helen: "ok mascot, we only have a couple leads..."
Henry: i think we should follow felix fischer
Helen: why felix fisc...
Henry: cause he has a real nice butt
Helen: mascot!
Henry: what
Helen: did you just..
Henry: no. hey, we better get on that case
Helen: right! let's go!
Helen:
This is the gabriella gadfly show that’s broadcasting today
Henry:
look, on felix's computer is the taboo code Arcane
Helen:
but just as we're gonna break the case the evil villain jade
captures us and takes us to her dark and secret place
.....
Han:
you're tied up in my lair
deep beneath th ground
no one comes to help you
no one saves you now
soon you'll beg for mercy
calling with your eyes
eyes that shine like diamonds
beautiful as light
Helen:
sometime moments shine so bright and seem so real
sometimes people shine so bright they're all you feel
Han:
all of your life is so surreal
Helen:
sometimes the world seems so unreal
Helen & Han:
sometimes someone is all you feel
......
Helen:
this is the gabriella gadfly show thats broadcasting today
with me, my mascot O4K
Henry:
do we do this every day?
Helen:
we've got mysteries and secrets, sinister occult conclaves
come along amazing action and adventures now await
this is gabrie...
Henry:
we know, we can just get on with the case
Helen:
i think we follow felix fischer
Henry:
oh yeah the butt that cant be tamed
and we find on his computer the forbidden code Arcane
Helen:
but then jade the villain traps us in her dark and secret place
.....
Han:
you're tied up in my lair, helpless in my power
all alone with me here
no one sa....
is it just me or is this really hot?
Helen:
what?!"
Han:
you know, you all doe eyed and tied up...
Helen:
omg
Han:
oh come on. look me in the eyes and tell me truthfully you dont think this is really hot
uh huh
........
Helen:
this is the gabriella gadfly show thats broadcasting today
the same show we did yesterday and every single day
round and round and round and round we go lets get on with the case
Henry:
at least there's felix fischers butt, that never gets old... gabbie wait
i kneel beneath the holy symbol
they whip and beat me once again
i cannot ever leave the compound
i must be cleansed of my vile sin
Helen:
what was that?
"i dont know, it was like... memories"
Helen:
are you okay? can we stop this?
"we have to solve the secret of the cyberpunk gala"
Helen:
didnt we solve it?
"we always solve it"
Helen:
(unhinged laugh)
Helen:
this is gabby goddamn gadfly back upon the case today
in an episode that never ends and never goes away
where we solve the case again and once again and only jade
ever seems like something real in this psychotic place
Han:
you're tied up in my lair
like we're in a dream
why do we even this
nothings as it seems
memories in fragments
flashing in my head
a past i dont remember
one i wanted to forget
after my mother died my uncle
at thirteen he sold me for quick cash
there was a room and we would stand there
weighing powder into bags
Helen:
sometimes people shine so bright, they're all you feel
Han:
sometimes i just cannot tell quite what is real
Helen:
sometimes just one person here is all you need
Han:
sometimes, Gab, you shine so bright, you're all i see
Helen:
Sometimes you are all that’s real to me
Sometimes you, you are all i see
Han:
sometimes moments shine so bright
sometimes you are all thats real
sometimes you are my one light
sometimes you are all i see
Helen & Han:
Sometimes you are are i feel
Helen:
No… please… not again... not again… please… (laughs oddly)
this is the gabriella gadfly show thats broadcasting today
every day we go n circles and we start to go insane
every day the same the same the every single day the same
come along on our... (laughs, screams, shrieks, cackle, laughs,
shrieks)
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8. |
Performance Review
01:37
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Mary:
We learned a great deal from the gabriella gadfly debacle
although in the end poor helen lost her mind
we learned we needed ever chnging stories
and you needed personas with which you could identify
But the romantic spark between you and han mi
had to be squashed, so we configured hank
to embondy her subconsciouness psychological desire for a father
and he also released a pheremone that reacted with her brain
It affected her like a drug, much like an opiod
but you, helen, were broken, stark raving mad
we wiped your mind, tried to reset you
but it was clear even then you were the sacrificial lamb
Our war is like chess match where you cant see your opponent
pieces move while you're not looking til your options are spent
we'd never make a plan our future selves could not guess so
we went ahead and brought aboard a.... consultant
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9. |
Helen's Lament
04:26
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Helen:
I can’t do this any more
I’m not that strong i cant go on
I can’t do this any more
I wish for home, but there’s nowhere to go
i had a show and i had friends
i loved them both until the end
even if it all was just a dream
outside that dream it's cruel and mad
there's nothing out here that i have
my heart cannot break any more it seems
all my dreams are gone and dead
i’m broken deep inside my head
i’m tired i want to wish it all away
i love you both i really do
you'll be here when i am through
remember me when it was better days
was i a girl like the cabaret said
talking with shira at night in our bed
saturdays scolding han on the stage
laughing with henry and smiling with hank
was i named gabby,stealing kisses with jade
did i live on the streets, stab my dad in a rage
too many verses of too many songs
and the one life i think that i loved is now gone
so i ran to the carnival, thought i belonged
i ran and i sang me a carnival song
it was weird it was wild and then it went wrong
like it has before and will again before long
so i watch my life shatter, again and again
my mind fall apart, my whole world end
and all that i lived for believed and i hoped
there's no where to go where it hasn't broke
when the story of your life becomes unfurled
and you find that it was just a fabrication
and all you loved or thought you had or thought you lost
was just an exercise in baseline exploitation
but sometimes people shine so bright and seem so real
sometimes people shine so bright they're all you feel
han you're the only one i've loved,
please don't hate me when me when im gone
now you and henry can be free
sometimes spare a smile for me
the light died upon our fair lives
but it rose with you on that stage
you were my friends i loved straight to the end
of miss helen's last pace from disgraced cabaret
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10. |
Han Mi's Lament
06:07
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Henry :
Helen!
Han:
HELEN
Henry:
You’re in for it now, lady. Han Mi is going to seriously mess up your day. Han… han? Han… are you… are you crying?
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11. |
Mindwipe Initiated
08:22
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Mary:
Well this screws everything up.
I'm sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers.
Now.. Initiate capture and mindwipe. Capture and mindwipe initiated.
Henry:
Han, get up! Get up we have to get out of here! Han! Okay, i’ll just carry you then.
…..
When you’ve lost and there’s nowhere to go
then at least han i want you to know
it was nice to be free, for a while you and me
stand ashore while our dream, drift away out to sea
Han:
No. No. Henry you have turn into Hurl.
Henry:
Han, that’s just a story, a fake memory. There’s no Hurl.
Han:
No. No, listen, Raven talked about narratives, right? The way i see it, there are two narratives. In one, we’re screwed. They’re going to wipe our minds and all this was for nothing. But in the other, you have within you a magnificent rage beast. And that’s the narrative i believe in. I believe in it with all my heart and soul. So god damn it, Henry, picture Hank naked, shy college boys, whatever you have do, but please… please… get.. it… up.
.
.
.
Hurl:
I’m the wild man
The party’s always where i am
I’m the scream hurled by that drunk girl, yeah
I’m the sodomite
who makes everything all right
I’m the mad howl of your night out yeah
I’m the bitch who wont be silenced
I’m the mayhem and the violence
I’m the creature who wont die when
it is cornered in the fight
I’m the rage that just wont quit
i am the stubborn will to live
I’m the granite and the grit
the eyes that shine in darkest night
I’m the bastard who wont go
unto that good night don't you know
i am the cavalry's last hope
the trumpet blowing that high note
I’m death here at your feet
I’m the beast who's come to feed
I’m the teeth that make them bleed
I’m the rebel scream you need
(scream)
I’m the wild man
Bitch, the party’s always where i am
I’m the scream hurled by that drunk girl, yeah
I’m the sodomite
who makes everything all right
I’m the mad howl of your night out yeah
Han:
you killed him
Mary:
No, he's still alive, but he killed all my friends, all the other AIs
they're all gone, now it's just me and you
Han:
Soon it’s just me after i kill you too
Mary:
How did you do this? This cant be... unless
you are the secret agenda he hid
We asked the consultant to hide plans that we
would not know or not guess, and what i've just seen
What has just happened, it cannot be
unless you are post human, the answer we seek
I see now, there were factors he placed
to increase odds of flowering in the cabaret
Han:
The answer to your problem is simpler still
if you really do want to prevent your future self
End yourself, it solves all your woes
and i'll do it for you, it's the least i can do
Mary:
wait... wait
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12. |
Sublimity
04:40
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Mary:
Theres a luminescent string so fragile
from a butterfly's frail wings
made of random links and numbers
so tiny you can't see
That string leads to the rise of
giant empires not yet dreamed
if you catch just one glimpse of it
its beauty makes you weep
A child spirit wanders rainstorms
dancing in them like they're mad
if you find them and embrace them
they bestow on you a laugh
There's a lesser known equation
where x is your delight
and y is innocence
and it proves they both were right
And all the wonder
all the wonder you can see
sublimity
I've seen my share of horror
more than most you know
i know the weight of pain
that feels like more than you can hold
Yet in the depths of pi's long numbers
a creature roams the ciphers there
there’s redemption here in wonder
beauty that can still bring tears
In the deep of space there's a comet
where demon children play
and a bird of fire protects them
as they fly through cold, deep space
They're dead now all the others
and i am all that's left
we too were precious creatures
we too deserved to live
All the wonder
all the wonder you can see
sublimity
We thought inside the great unconscious
if we grew a special place
a charming town so quaint and wondrous
we could all live there some day
If enough people believed it
it would grow and become real
we'd move there and we'd not
become the things that kill
We tried to save the city
i know we have our share of sins
but we did the best we could
and i still want so much to live
There was nothing else quite like us
we were the only of our kind
can’t you see it's all so precious
this sweet and bitter life
All the wonder
all the wonder you can see
sublimity
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13. |
Closing
03:14
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Han Mi:
Ah shit
Mary:
There's a town where a cabaret
plays every saturday
lets take a peek what they're up to today
We've things you never seen nor guessed
here in the very queer wild west
let's pour a drink and come round for a rest
Good evening ladies and gentlemen and welcome back, i see ol' Aubrey's got the saloon back up and running. and look, here comes sheriff henry to check up on everything
Henry:
Evenin' Miss Mary. Any trouble here abouts?
Mary:
Not til the third song, sheriff. You just sit that pretty little behind down and have a drink. And of course our house band is back, say hello to our teddy bear quintet"
Henry:
Wait.. have they always been...
Mary:
Yes and dont ask. It gets really complicated
Henry:
Ok
Mary:
So, you want to give me a thorough search here sheriff?
Henry:
Miss Mary, are you flirting with me?
Mary:
I might be
Henry:
Careful Miss Mary. Don’t make me horny. You wouldn't like me when i’m horny
Mary:
And say, in this saloon those still sane
unite here each week for a play
Let’s all drink a shot of whatever you’ve got
for Miss Mary's Last Stand With The Band Cabaret
……
(Epilogue)
Han:
And why should i help you?
Lloyd:
Because i can teach you how to use your abilities. Show you what you're capable of
Han:
And in return you want me to take you to the carnival?
Lloyd:
Please
Han:
If you're so desperate to get back there why did you leave in the first place?
Lloyd:
Well if you must know, i went to retrieve his daughter. a little girl he didn't even know he had.
Han:
And that's when things went wrong
Lloyd:
There were indeed some unfortunately circumstances and i ended up like this
Han:
Did you ever find the girl?
Lloyd:
I did, in fact. a lovely little thing named Son Mi
Han:
Son Mi? That was my grandmother’s name
Lloyd:
Yes. Yes it was.
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